Today was free pancake day at IHOP. I pre-planned to only get the short stack- 10 points. But, somehow when I got there...I heard myself ordering an omelette and the short stack. Damn. My lunch today was 30 points. ...I only get 33 a day... I do have my weeklies, but I hadn't planned to use them.
Why didn't I just stick to plan? I'm not being self pitying- don't leave me comments telling me to forgive myself and move on. I am trying to move on. And I think that to do that I need a better understanding about why it is so hard for me to stick to the plan. It is self sabotage in that my eyes are so much bigger than my stomach (should be) and that food can be such an overwhelming experience as to make me order food with my mouth without any conscience recollection of my brain actually deciding to.
How can I change this? How can I make food less impulse and more mindful?