She's HERE!! She's HERE!!! My sister has arrived! And of course with that comes the deluge of photos. So these are my update photos for you as well. I know they are all sitting...I'll work on getting one that's not. Aside from that, I feel beautiful. I look healthy. I see a whole new C. in these pictures than what my brain often tells me. I sure am ready for my brain to accept how far I've come in this journey!! Till then I'll just keep trying to shock it with TONS of pictures.
My sister is Christine, she is in the purple on the right. Isn't she just stunning? She takes my breath away sometimes. She is just beautiful in every way. She was 13 when our dad married my mom (in the middle), and two years after that I was born. (My mom and our dad have now been married almost 30 years.) As kids, Christine was often given the responsibility of babysitting me, and it was her job to pick me up from daycare when she would get out of her high school classes for the day. As far as I can recall, she has always been kind and generous to me, though she says there were times that she lost her patience with me, like any normal teen would when charged with the care of a toddler. She has not only been a wonderful sister to me, but she has been like a mother to me in so many ways.
I love that in this picture we all appear to be about the same size. Being the fattest girl in a picture always sucks. It's easy for me to point out how alike we look in so many ways. When I was very heavy (and my features distorted by fat), I remember not being able to see the resemblance.
That's our dad. He has turned out to be a really TRULY wonderful dad. He just gets better and better with age. He's my friend. I don't think a lot of people can say that about their dads. I realize how very lucky I am even to have a father in the picture. It's truly a blessing that I ended up with a very GOOD one to boot.
He struggles with his weight constantly. I worry more and more that I might not get very many more pictures with him. I try my very best to be a good role model for him. Though, I know I also enable him because many of our interaction revolves around food. It's quite the conundrum for me.
I just love this photo. It makes me smile. I can see the love we have. We LOOK like sisters. Also, I like how my legs and shape look. I always seem to think my calves are still HUGE. Here they look proportionate and about the same size as Christine's, comparatively.
Despite all the eating out we've done since she's gotten here, I'm still making good choices and finding it easy to make them. I eat only half a portion and save up points by eating fruit to stave off hunger. I think it's working well, though I'm not watching the scale religiously. I did fit into those black shorts I'm wearing in the pictures today, and they had previously been too snug to wear comfortably.
I couldn't get to an aerobics class on Friday, but I did get on the elliptical for 30 minutes. I went to a weight training class today (Saturday) but didn't get in any cardio, and I felt pretty antsy from missing it. I got agitated when we had to sit down for too long (I HATE waiting) and kept feeling these bursts on energy where I wanted to bolt up a set of steps or jog to the next store, I took the dogs for a quick run around the block in the afternoon and felt better for a little while. It was strange to think that my body was missing having my heart racing!!?