"Enjoy a treat...once in awhile."
"Have these foods...occasionally."
WTF does that mean? Okay, so if "a couple" is 2 and "a few" is 3, what is moderation? How often can I enjoy in my favorite treats without worrying about gaining weight?
Is it twice a week? Once a week? Once a month? I need to know these things. How often can I have a cupcake? or frozen yogurt?
I'm constantly offered treats and opportunities to indulge in treats and have a steel willpower when I'm on track. But that gets old and eventually leads to me eating those foods and feeling guilty for it because I'm concerned I won't lose weight because of it, and that stress often leads to other bad food decisions.
For example, two nights ago I broke down and got frozen yogurt. I put less frozen yogurt in my cup than I usually would, and less toppings on too, but still- it certainly wasn't all fat free yogurt with fruit topping. Then last night, I had extra points pretty late and decided to have a few pieces of Hubs Halloween candy stash. I ended up eating one more piece than I meant to.
I feel guilty over these things and I know how dumb that sounds.
I understand that in the grand scheme of things in the journey I've been on, I'm doing DAMN good. But, I do have guilt over "breaking down" and eating these foods. I know that at the very absolutely least of it all, I am aware of what's going on and I'm concerned about it and that enough means that I am a new person. But being able to recognize these patterns naturally sparks my curiousity into why it is so and do I have the control to change it if I want to.
And so where I'm at right now is that I NEED you. I NEED understanding of what "in moderation" means? I am almost seeking permission from like-minded people. How often is it 'OK?' to have these foods without fear of gaining weight?